a challenge.

ask yourself these questions.
ask yourself daily.

when or where in the past 24 hours did you feel you were cooperating most fully with God's action in your life?
when were you resisting?

what habits and life patterns do i notice?
when did i feel most alive?
most drained of life?
when did i have the greatest sense of belonging?
when did i feel most alone?
when did i give love?
when did i receive love?
when did i feel most fully myself?
least myself?
when did i feel most whole?
most fragmented?

prayer of examen.

what is this season?

i'm just not content.

family. they're mine.

bring a little love for me.

i'm ready to give up all my sin;
but i don't know where to begin.

sweet lover mine,
it's the morning of a new day.

and i thank you Lord, for everything
that you've done.


so, life is hectic right now. i started a new job as the activity director at chardon healthcare. i know, i know, everyone thinks all activity directors do is play games and schedule games all day. not the case. i feel i've just been thrown into this ocean of things that i've never had to deal with before. employees, one in particular that doesn't like me and thinks i should have never gotten the promotion, monthly budgets, hiring, interviewing, calling people and telling them you aren't going to hire them, dealing with a human resource manager who is so incredibly moody and/or bipolar, disciplining/managing employees that are basically the same age as me, organizing about a bajillion things, planning ahead, being responsible, watching what i say, not getting too busy for my residents, constantly worrying about individualized care for my residents, hearing one of my residents tell me, "oh, you're just like ONE OF THEM now!" (granted, she's a little {a lot} crazy), managing care plans, progress notes, MDS, assessments, RAPs...it's so much!

granted, right now i'm in the thick of things. old boss just left, i just got promoted, we have a vacant spot, i'm still learning the job, although everyone expects me to just know things it seems - things just aren't on a smooth course right now. i just want to remember to not get too far ahead of myself, to keep the stress down, and to just look forward. to just look at God and His strength, not at my own.

pray for me!

the drifter and the gypsy

the train is almost here
this decision seems so clear
i can feel the habit cutting like a knife
in the end i know that it is gonna drive right into me

cause i’m a drifter and i know that doesn’t do me any good
moving on from place to place, never staying where i should

i left him just to leave
no i left him cause he needed me
i can feel him looking at me
like i took his '67 chevrolet and drove it away

cause i’m a gypsy and i know that doesn’t do me any good
moving on from place to place, stealing hearts just cause i could

walked into another strange place,
didn’t see a single face that I recognized or want to,
guess its on to the next place

cause i’m a drifter and i know that doesn’t do me any good
moving on from place to place, never staying where i should
i’m a gypsy and i know that doesn’t do me any good
moving on from place to place, stealing hearts just cause i could

rosi golan.

yes, yes indeed.

olympia
orcas island
seattle
everett
ocean shores
seaside
portland
lincoln city
newport
astoria
eugene
gold beach
eureka
redding
napa
san francisco
big sur
carmel
monterey
corvallis
truckee
capitola
del mar
eastsound
san luis obispo
crested butte
bozeman
homer
prescott
little river
la jolla
pacific city
malibu
depoe bay
sonoma
san diego
yachats
elk

a bit 'o truth.

life is hard.
romans 8:21-22

God is more concerned with glorifying Himself
and changing us than solving our problems.
2 corinthians 4:17

God has an eternal purpose He is fulfilling
in the midst of our problems.
romans 5:3-4
james 1:24-25

God wants to use our problems
as part of His sanctifying process
in our lives.
job 23:10

no matter what problem we face,
God's grace is sufficient.
2 corinthians 12:7-10