went home this past weekend. so beautiful.
if you didn't know, i have the most amazing church. a church that started out in a school gym, to a tent, and now a gorgeous building.
the area is so small, unassuming. but wow! god never fails to show up, never fails to remind me of who i am. each and every time i visit, i am reminded.
anyways, they started what they call a "prayer furnace." it's three sessions every day of harp and bowl worship. it is absolutely beautiful. for the past two weeks, several people from my church have been in worship and prayer for about 40 hours a week.
it was wonderful to reconnect with friends and talk about how much time has flown by. to laugh, to talk, to cry a lot. it was good.
i'm just reminded again of how far i feel that i am straying lately. not exactly from the lord, well i should say not totally. but i'm straying from myself, from who i am. i'm getting short changed. i'm settling. it isn't good, and it was never intended.
it's spiritual, it's physical. i can sense it, i can feel it.
oh, let your fire fall.
we are in need of you.
our hearts are longing for your presence.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
myers briggs test
So, I took this really long and thorough personality test from Myers Briggs. I'm an INFP!
INFPs are idealistic and loyal to their values and to the people important to them. They are curious and quick to see possibilities, and often are catalysts for implementing new ideas. They want to understand people and help them fulfill their potential. They are adaptable until one of their cherished values is threatened.
They value home, family, autonomy, health, and creativity.
INFPs represent approximately 4% of the U.S. population.
INFPs are idealistic and loyal to their values and to the people important to them. They are curious and quick to see possibilities, and often are catalysts for implementing new ideas. They want to understand people and help them fulfill their potential. They are adaptable until one of their cherished values is threatened.
They value home, family, autonomy, health, and creativity.
INFPs represent approximately 4% of the U.S. population.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
a challenge.
ask yourself these questions.
ask yourself daily.
when or where in the past 24 hours did you feel you were cooperating most fully with God's action in your life?
when were you resisting?
what habits and life patterns do i notice?
when did i feel most alive?
most drained of life?
when did i have the greatest sense of belonging?
when did i feel most alone?
when did i give love?
when did i receive love?
when did i feel most fully myself?
least myself?
when did i feel most whole?
most fragmented?
prayer of examen.
ask yourself daily.
when or where in the past 24 hours did you feel you were cooperating most fully with God's action in your life?
when were you resisting?
what habits and life patterns do i notice?
when did i feel most alive?
most drained of life?
when did i have the greatest sense of belonging?
when did i feel most alone?
when did i give love?
when did i receive love?
when did i feel most fully myself?
least myself?
when did i feel most whole?
most fragmented?
prayer of examen.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Saturday, August 8, 2009
bring a little love for me.
i'm ready to give up all my sin;
but i don't know where to begin.
sweet lover mine,
it's the morning of a new day.
and i thank you Lord, for everything
that you've done.
so, life is hectic right now. i started a new job as the activity director at chardon healthcare. i know, i know, everyone thinks all activity directors do is play games and schedule games all day. not the case. i feel i've just been thrown into this ocean of things that i've never had to deal with before. employees, one in particular that doesn't like me and thinks i should have never gotten the promotion, monthly budgets, hiring, interviewing, calling people and telling them you aren't going to hire them, dealing with a human resource manager who is so incredibly moody and/or bipolar, disciplining/managing employees that are basically the same age as me, organizing about a bajillion things, planning ahead, being responsible, watching what i say, not getting too busy for my residents, constantly worrying about individualized care for my residents, hearing one of my residents tell me, "oh, you're just like ONE OF THEM now!" (granted, she's a little {a lot} crazy), managing care plans, progress notes, MDS, assessments, RAPs...it's so much!
granted, right now i'm in the thick of things. old boss just left, i just got promoted, we have a vacant spot, i'm still learning the job, although everyone expects me to just know things it seems - things just aren't on a smooth course right now. i just want to remember to not get too far ahead of myself, to keep the stress down, and to just look forward. to just look at God and His strength, not at my own.
pray for me!
but i don't know where to begin.
sweet lover mine,
it's the morning of a new day.
and i thank you Lord, for everything
that you've done.
so, life is hectic right now. i started a new job as the activity director at chardon healthcare. i know, i know, everyone thinks all activity directors do is play games and schedule games all day. not the case. i feel i've just been thrown into this ocean of things that i've never had to deal with before. employees, one in particular that doesn't like me and thinks i should have never gotten the promotion, monthly budgets, hiring, interviewing, calling people and telling them you aren't going to hire them, dealing with a human resource manager who is so incredibly moody and/or bipolar, disciplining/managing employees that are basically the same age as me, organizing about a bajillion things, planning ahead, being responsible, watching what i say, not getting too busy for my residents, constantly worrying about individualized care for my residents, hearing one of my residents tell me, "oh, you're just like ONE OF THEM now!" (granted, she's a little {a lot} crazy), managing care plans, progress notes, MDS, assessments, RAPs...it's so much!
granted, right now i'm in the thick of things. old boss just left, i just got promoted, we have a vacant spot, i'm still learning the job, although everyone expects me to just know things it seems - things just aren't on a smooth course right now. i just want to remember to not get too far ahead of myself, to keep the stress down, and to just look forward. to just look at God and His strength, not at my own.
pray for me!
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
the drifter and the gypsy
the train is almost here
this decision seems so clear
i can feel the habit cutting like a knife
in the end i know that it is gonna drive right into me
cause i’m a drifter and i know that doesn’t do me any good
moving on from place to place, never staying where i should
i left him just to leave
no i left him cause he needed me
i can feel him looking at me
like i took his '67 chevrolet and drove it away
cause i’m a gypsy and i know that doesn’t do me any good
moving on from place to place, stealing hearts just cause i could
walked into another strange place,
didn’t see a single face that I recognized or want to,
guess its on to the next place
cause i’m a drifter and i know that doesn’t do me any good
moving on from place to place, never staying where i should
i’m a gypsy and i know that doesn’t do me any good
moving on from place to place, stealing hearts just cause i could
rosi golan.
this decision seems so clear
i can feel the habit cutting like a knife
in the end i know that it is gonna drive right into me
cause i’m a drifter and i know that doesn’t do me any good
moving on from place to place, never staying where i should
i left him just to leave
no i left him cause he needed me
i can feel him looking at me
like i took his '67 chevrolet and drove it away
cause i’m a gypsy and i know that doesn’t do me any good
moving on from place to place, stealing hearts just cause i could
walked into another strange place,
didn’t see a single face that I recognized or want to,
guess its on to the next place
cause i’m a drifter and i know that doesn’t do me any good
moving on from place to place, never staying where i should
i’m a gypsy and i know that doesn’t do me any good
moving on from place to place, stealing hearts just cause i could
rosi golan.
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